I got a lot of notes from people with regard to #8 on my lists of twelve things I am noticing post BC treatment:
“8. I feel sad sometimes that I won’t ever be able to breast feed. I don’t have any immediate plans to have kids, but it still pops into my head at times.”
I have thought about it a bit more, and I think the underlying issue is that I am mourning the loss of a functioning part of my body that no longer functions the way it was intended to. I actually don’t believe that I wouldn’t be able to bond with a baby (if I have a baby that is). I feel like a part of my youth and vitality has been stripped away and it makes me angry/sad, but I am working on accepting things as they are. I can’t change it, so I’ve just got to be OK with it.